I’m not currently depressed and I am way over that point of breaking down that I was at not long ago. This week was really good and I have been happy.
School is stressful and I am more than ready for spring break to be here. My RA class is stressful because I don’t know if I really have the job or even if I am doing what I need to be doing to make a good impression. All I can do is be me and honestly, that does not really feel like enough.
It’s been way too long since I got to see my family. I didn’t think I would ever be that girl that got bummed because she misses her family, but I am. I don’t need to see them constantly but I love my family even though they are crazy. I want to give my mom a hug and play with my little cousins. I just miss them.
I miss my friends too. I miss being around those people that know all of my flaws and love me anyway. I miss the people that really make me believe that humanity is good. I want to sit and talk about boys and random ass stuff. I want to laugh until I cry. I want to play a silly game and stay up too late just because I am having too much fun to go to bed.
Despite how bummed I am about not being able to go home and all the stress of school, I am really happy. I am happy with the choices that I have made and the person that I am becoming. Everything in my life is not perfect, but it really does not have to be.
Nothing is wrong really. I just miss a lot right now.