My mom is crazy. I really can’t wait until school starts back. Oh god I never thought I’d say that.
May 2009
“I’m like white chocolate”
—Michelle thinks she is black.
Sometimes things just don’t make sense. It’s not cool.
oh my god... drunken me is such a whore.
I am the only one that has not thrown up.
I'm doing shots for the first time ever.... this should be fun.
I think too much.
I’m at Mitch’s house. He’s sleeping. I don’t blame him. I am rather exhausted, but a nap would not be a good idea for me at the moment. I would end up sleeping forever.
We were supposed to go camping. Camping would have been fun. Plus, I would have got the chance to see some people from Knoxville which would have been amazing. I miss that stupid little city more than words can possibly describe. But the weather was plotting against me. I am not the most outdoorsy type of girl. Adding in rain and storms was just not going to happen.
I have been thinking so much lately. That is all there is to do in my hometown really. I have thought about how I slacked off so much this year I was on the verge of losing my financial aid, about how the friends I used to have all seem so shallow and uninteresting, about how the friends I am making all seem too serious, about how my mom seems so childish and innocent, about how I don’t worry as much as I used to, about everything.
I guess all of that sounds kind of bad… it’s not really. I just wish all my thinking amounted to something, but it never does. It just ends up with me being frustrated.
I'm supposed to go camping
But it’s storming outside. :(
It took me a long time to realize that I’m not actually that smart…I’ve just failed enough to know what not to do.
Listen
Mandy by Barry Manilow
When I was little, I kind of went through this whole Barry Manilow phase.
Yeah, I was a weird kid.
I am trying very hard not to kill my mother.
It’s only been like a week but she is driving me crazy.
I wish I didn’t have to live at home this summer.
Mario Kart makes me say bad words.
So far summer has consisted of watching a lot of television. Bad television.
I am hoping it gets better soon.
Summer break… I’m over it.
Driving away from knoxville. :(
This is strange. Miss it already.
