“When someone loves you for a long, long time… REALLY loves you, then you become Real. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real, you can’t be ugly.”—The Velveteen Rabbit
My boyfriends at work. I am way awkward around his roommate. She is an awkward person and so am I. They dont really interact that much and I am fairly convinced that she would rather me not be here. As a result of all this, I am spending my day in his bedroom. Currently playing with his macbook (which I adore) and watching Camp. I really should be doing the homework I have, but whatev.
I’ll be flying to California. LAX by way of Dallas to be exact. I am sooo excited. I can’t wait to do all the typical touristy things, but I also can’t wait to see like the real LA. I’m excited to spend more time with Derek too. I really wish he lived closer.
I’m insanely scared as well though. I have only ever flown once, and it was in a really big group. It was a much shorter flight and I was surrounded by people. I had a safty net. Now I don’t. But I’m gonna do this. I have to do this.
My mom would have loved that I’m going to California. She would have been so worried, but so happy. I miss her so much.