Breanna Blogs
Needs to hurry up and end.
My forehead is peeling and feels disgusting. My whole body is sore for different reasons. I slept like crap last night. I miss my friends. My kitten has decided his poop is a toy. The internet decided to stop working while I was doing something important.
I’m just over today.
It’s different, living in a tiny space with someone else. There is not a place that is just mine right now.
I miss my people. I miss knowing everyone. I miss knowing where everything is.
Despite all of the things I miss, I feel like I made the right decision. It feels right to share dinner with D every night. I love him. I love our kitten. I love that we have a life together now.
The Sign- Ace of Base
Remember that Full House episode where Stephanie sings this with her bad influence friend? God, they were terrible.
I have no idea why.
My kitten is a bit of a trouble maker, but I love him.
Los Angeles, I’m Yours- The Decemberists
Seriously, I know this isn’t the end of the world or anything, but right now it kind of feels like it.
Today was pretty perfect. Then we started packing up for tomorrow, talking about shipping things out to LA, and I decided to check my itinerary for tomorrow’s flight, which apparently was actually a flight for last month.
This is the flight that is supposed to move me to California.
I’m uncomfortable flying at the best of times, and right now, I am just plain scared. I’m nervous about moving, about starting this new life. As much as I don’t want to admit it, my stupid mistake feels like a sign from god to just not do this. And I don’t even believe in signs from god.
I don’t know what to do. So, I’m going to sit on the couch and pout some more.
I left school and am spending the week with my family and D’s family.
We were at my aunt’s earlier in the week, which I loved but he barely tolerated. My family is a little crude and a lot insane. They smoke a lot, which bothers the boyfriend but I am pretty used to it at this point.
Right now, we are with D’s dad, step-mom, and younger sister. His younger sister is seven and a little jealous of the time he devotes to me I think. I understand. I would be jealous if he was giving some other girl attention too. His step-mom means well but has some seriously crazy opinions sometimes. His dad is so much like him that it makes me feel like I am looking at my future sometimes.
We are doing a lot of random stuff tomorrow, and staying the night at his mom’s place in Nashville. Our flight is on Saturday.
Saturday, I will have officially moved to California. Crazy.
How can it be this cold in Tennessee in May?
I will be leaving Knoxville for good.
Some parts of that statement are really sad for me. Other parts make me ridiculously happy.
I found the most amazing boy in the world, and I am so thankful to have him.
You can love someone but have such different expectations that things don’t work out.
I am completely in love with my boyfriend and I would love to spend forever with him, but I also am completely in love with myself and will not stay in a relationship that is not equally beneficial ever again.
I guess we will see how it goes.
She’s seriously pretty. And right now, she is telling me about how she doesn’t want to see her mom because her mom always tells her she needs to lose weight. I don’t even understand that. Girl is clearly at a very healthy weight for her and her body, but she seems to have some major issues with it because of her mom.
It’s making me sad.
