I’ve been having crap luck since moving here because my experience is limited to just stuff from school. D.’s company needs some help in the office and he suggested me. They agreed to hire me for a month, maybe more depending on how things work out.
I’m super excited, and also slightly terrified. I feel like if I don’t do well, it will reflect badly on D and his work reputation is super important to him. I just don’t want to disappoint anyone. Really though, I am so excited to have work to do that I don’t even care about those nervous butterflies right now.
I didn’t get to do any of the things I wanted to do today because I overslept and then had to deal with a super crazy version of Memphis that seemed totally intent on hurting himself. Trying to eat lillies? Check. Burning his whiskers on the stove? Check.
All of the RA’s are back on campus. They have been for a week. It feels really freaking weird to not be there. But I can’t afford to go back to school right now. I probably couldn’t be an RA again if I were going back to school.
The sucky part though is that my last year as an RA, I sucked. I was so just not good at my job and I take full responsibility for that. I could have been good. I had moments of being great. But in general, I spent all of last year in a funk. Finally dealing with my mom not being there, breaking up with D, dating and breaking up with the tall ginger, getting back together with D and figuring out how to handle a long distance relationship again all caused me to be a mostly crazy, kind of depressed girl. It shouldn’t have effected my job, but it did.
I just kind of hate that I went out on such a low note.
This whole taking time off school thing is still just freaking me out more than I want to admit.